This is it

I wrote a poem, and thought it might bring some spirits up if I shared it. It's about life. And how you should be who you are, and embrace the you you are because you've made yourself, and kept yourself running, after each and every obstacle put in your path.

I think life is a lot less than we make it out to be, but at the same time, way more than anyone could ever imagine. We leave so much for granted and act like we have the worst lives in the books. Well, no one says you don't. But try and live it as is, because it's what you have, and there's nothing else to do but die. And that's not an option until it's beautiful, like memento mori <3

Beautiful Life

The weakness is unavoidable
but you're afraid to embrace
the inevitable.
If scars could sow themselves up
to blend with skin
before the damage was done
Would you choose to let it mend
Or reveal yourself as you are now?
and should be
No regrets left on the path
leading from the heels of your feet
To the beginning
where you once began.
What if starting over
was just a button
on the tips of your fingers?
Would you push it
Or follow the footsteps
you created
when you first learned to run?
Free as a dragonfly
Small as a rollie pollie
But still able to survive
against the world as we know it.
If they're making you choose
Refuse
to let them take away the rights
of owning every emotion
by humankind.
When life gives you love
you accept the hate that follows
With the tears and the laughs
and the everything that is.
Life is not a game
and we are not the players
Life is an open book
With the beginning
Middle
And end not set and stone
But cut between choices
Chosen by us as ourselves
and followed with the consequences
Like each written page should be.
So we are the characters we create ourselves
In the story book that we continue to write, as well
And with each blink of your eyes
a few more words are added
to the intersection you've come so far to get to.
Several more chapters
with more than enough years
to sell to Bella Morte herself
For a bella vita accomplished

For those who aren't familiar with the Italian language:
bella morte - beautiful death
bella vita - beautiful life

And I'm out.
Stay beautiful, and lead a beautiful life.
-Kylie

Maybe there's more to the years...

Four more days until Christmas, and yet each hour that we get closer to it, the less it even feels like winter itself. Kansas is rather warm for the winters, and makes me wonder if the hoax of global warming is really a hoax at all.

For some of you, the year has blown after pretty fairly. And for others, well, let's just say it hasn't been the best year yet. For me, it's been the worst of the 15, almost 16, years of life. Over 6 months ago, my mother beat the life out of me, and left me panicking on my bed, hyperventilating and scared out of my whits. There were bruises on my face, neck and collarbone. Hair fallen on the floor from my scalp, and bruises unseen on my head. Slash marks on my arms and a bite on my wrist/hand. I still have the scar from the bite. A constant reminder that my family is nutcase insane, but I'm living, because there's nothing else I can do to get OUT. I'm not one to believe in heaven or hell, but I'm not ready to leave this world quite yet for whatever comes afterwards.

A few weeks ago, my dog of 8 years was stolen. She was like my first best friend. And it hurts knowing that this Christmas, she won't be there to open her presents.

And the last big event of late happened today. I come home to a mailbox full of cards written to myself and siblings from the grandparents my mother has shunned. We have not seen them in 4-5 years. After opening the card, I grabbed the phone and phone book, and called my grandmother. We sat on the phone, myself, and two of my sisters, with her and cried, and exclaimed how much we missed each other. We made her day, but it has made my year.

Grandmothers and grandparents are one of a kind, don't ever let them go. If they love and care for you, why bother letting the relationship stray away? Family is one of a kind...and sometimes it can be tempting to let those relationships stray away, but all you need is a little more heart and forgiveness to let it all go. And when it's not enough, because sometimes the forgiven don't deserve the forgiveness, don't let it bring you down. Move on, carry on, and stick to the one's who are there. Sometimes your family isn't really a family at all, but a pack of friends. If it's all you've got, it's what you need, then hold onto it.

Surrounding me are the people I love, and the people I distrust. There will always be all types of people around you, and you can't let it get in the way. Obstacles are meant to be overcome through the years. Maybe that's what the years are for, to see how much you CAN, in fact, overcome. It's all a test. And aging only shows how much and long you've survived. It's not a race, but if you can last, you're a survivor <3

~Kylie

Listen up, it's important

The world is growing darker as each day passes by, and it's tearing me apart. Your saddness is making me grow cold with saddness, as well. All of my friends...they're falling off the edge, and dragging me down with them. A lot of them want to die. A lot of them won't even tell me what the hell is wrong. They're blocking me out, and I don't know what to do because I'm trying *everything*. Suicide...is not the way to handle anything. I've been in these places. I just got done sitting in the bathroom with a razor in my hand, contemplating slicing away what's left. But I placed it back down. Because I'm not falling again. I refuse to go back to the darkest days of my life, and I refuse to let all of you get there, too.

When someone tells you they're there for you, let them be. If you need space, okay. But you need to let that person, or those people in, at some point. Because all they want to do is help and they love you. Don't hide it all under a facade, I had to find out from other people I don't even know that she was going to kill herself, and in fact had already attempted. I've been going around asking everyone else what's wrong with him because he won't open up. Don't let it come to this; don't leave your friends wondering, let them know you're okay, or you're not okay. If time is what you need, we'll give it...but time honestly doesn't run on forever. We love you guys. I love you guys.

I'm so scared to do anything...I've caused myself sickness, I keep crying because I hate to see the world in such a depression. Friends, lovers and fighters, be there for everyone out there. Be there for one another. Don't be afraid to take that one person's hand and let them know...how much you love them.

I love you Courtney.
I love you Tyler.
I love you all.

Keep the beauty.

-Kylie

Calling all unity for peace and love!

Hello all of you beautiful souls! It's been a terribly long time since I've written to all of you, it kinda makes me sad. But, here I am, ready to give more information :)

I hope you all know that last month (October) was special for several reasons. Honoring those suicide victims who were tired of living in a hell where everyone was against gays; fighting against breast cancer, preventing domestic and all other types of violence, and there was even National Coming Out Day, on October 11th. Everyone should know that we're all equal. Equality is literally the key to everything. We should all be equally loved as humans, and we should all be equally punished for our wrongs. No one should be excluded from the world for race, sexual preference, shape and size, or background. Is it so hard to have one simple unified thought? All we need...is love. And equality brings that. If you can set aside the differences, what is there to keep you apart? It all comes down to your beauty, your souls, and the hands that reach out towards each other for comfort and friendship. Be the person the world wishes you to be, a broad enough statement that is broken down into one simple meaning: Be loving. Caring. Peaceful. And you become the rest as you wish to be, afterall, that's what makes you YOU.

It seems the world is in a sort of depression right now. Conrtoversial issues, lack of money and job opportunites, and a lack of caring. Create a way to make something a little better, a lot less in the hole than it already is. Get the community to chip in one dollar per person to save towards something tremendous, or to help towards those in dire need of the help. Make a club at your school on peace and equality, speak out and tell others how you feel, you'd be surprised on how many other individuals feel the same way, but are just like you and don't know how to, or want to, speak it out, in fear of losing what they have. There will always be that number of people who are against you...and let it be. Because the right idea comes with bringing all the same great thoughts together as one to create what will block out the wrong. You can do it. You all can. Because what's beautiful can <3

--Kylie

Love is all you need, and love is what you'll always have

Dear friends, teenagers, adults and friends of this world...Life can be so tough and horrendous, and sometimes crawling under that rock just isn't enough, you want to take the last few steps to fall from the cliff, but life...can also be so rewarding and beautiful. Take this and keep it on your mind always, because the terrible and the wonderful go hand in hand, which means there is no one without the other. Life IS a roller coaster, darlings. And sometimes the loops feel never ending, but they all end somewhere. It's inevitable.

Recently, my close friend hung himself. Luckily his step father found him in time, but with the lack of oxygen for 6 minutes, he went into a coma. I haven't heard anything since then, and I'm hoping with all of my heart that he'll make it out okay. He should know that because I care, because all of his friends care, it means we love him. And he doesn't need to leave us if he's got all he needs. Happiness comes with coping with all of it, and I know anyone can do it as long as they try their hardest. I have been through SO much, I know exactly how life can seem, and to be honest, I hate it most of the time myself. I've wanted to die, I've TRIED to kill myself and it's gotten me no where, and now I see how much those people in my life care and love me. That doesn't mean that I don't still wish to die sometimes...because I do. It's not wrong to think like this. As long as you stop and think about it, and don't act on it, everything will go by alright, because you can get through anything. I want to share so much with all of you...everything I've been through. So you know how much we have in common, how other people go through similar terrible shit. Wish it, try it, ACCOMPLISH it. I have faith, and so do others.

Someone out there loves you. Several out there love you. No matter what they tell you, no matter what you tell yourself. I care. I know I'm a random girl you all don't know...so how can I care? I care because I know what it's like and I know how it feels and I know...that everyone needs someone, and everyone is so beautiful, I don't understand this wonder yet it is so tremendous. I love you all, I truly do. So do one thing for me...and live, because it's all under this one sky, in this one world, in this one life.

Stay beautiful. <3
-Kylie

Refresh!

Well, people of the internet...it's been a long and hard first half of the year. For a lot of people out there, not just Erika and I. I would like to bring up a fact that Erika mentioned in one of her earlier posts: We're not just some babbling-think-we-know-it-alls. We've been in similar, if not exact, situations as all of you have. Her and I together have pretty much been through everything, you name it. We've got the experiences, we're giving the advice from the heart and the mind, because maybe you need to hear it from someone just like yourselves.

I think what I would like to talk about in this post is the reinventions of a person. We've all made changes, about ourselves, and with certain things we do, but this is different. I don't technically mean changing yourself as YOU, but changing what's around you, the *people* in your life that only cause you more harm and extreme, unecessary stress, rather than good, for the better of you moving on in life. No, I have not tried it. I'm going to begin starting now. It's an idea that popped into my head while overthinking my stressful past events, and agonizing the one's to come. Is it possible to renew a person? Can someone flush all of the bad influences away, and replace them with people much better? The answer, I believe, is yes. Starting with the simpler people is the beginning, and yes, it's going to be hard. But you have to think about yourself for once, and if not for once, again, because at the end of the day, what matters is You. Now is the time to take the steps towards caring more for yourself, which means getting rid of the one's that are keeping you locked in the same position. Tell those people how you feel, that you think it would be better for yourself if they just stayed away. You can let them know you love them, if you do, but that your heart and your head can't take any more stress without faltering. And if they understand, maybe they'll listen. But if they don't, perhaps it's time to take it up a notch. No Contact Orders, which, let me tell you, are way easier than restraining orders (I would know, I have one. :\) But this is only if necessary, I wouldn't want any of you having to go through such situations, as I know they may already be far worse.

Like me, I'm gonna start with the simpler ones, that ones I can remove now. But, unlike a lot of the people, there are one's I must wait for time to erase. Like my mother. I'm still living at home, and yet she's the biggest bad influence in my life, and I'll have to wait years before I can move out, and click my refresh button.

Just hold on to hope, all of you. Because with time, things might just get better. And you are capable of clicking that refresh button, it's always there as an option.

And remember...You're always beautiful <3

--Kylie

First August Post

Normally I wouldn't be on here with 2 posts so soon, but I don't see why I shouldn't plus I have good reason to. One of which being that I want to have the first post of August before Kylie stealz it. But there are a couple other reasons too.

First and foremost: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nReOeW1UckI
This above is a video from one of my favorite youtubers. Some of you may have already heard of Shane Dawson and his reputation for being a maker of hilarious videos, but recently he's making more meaningful videos, still with some humor, but the underlying meaning is clear. Two of his newest videos are about highschool drama, the first of which is about growing up fatherless and Shane wanting to be the dad he never had. The second one is the link I posted above. It's about eating disorders and being comfortable in your own body.

The second thing I want to talk about is sixbillionsecrets.com and givesmehope.com. The first one isn't necessarily a happy site, but it allows you to post your secrets anonymously. The secrets posted range from overly depressing to innocent, but the community is very supportive. Once when someone said they were going to kill themselves, tons of posts showed up begging them to live. The second site is a much happier site, with posts about the small things that give people hope. This all leads into my third topic.

Last night while on sixbillionsecrets, I was voting on upcoming secrets when I came across one from a girl named Katie. She had started cutting when she was 12 and was now 14. She said she couldn't stop and begged for help, leaving her email address. The first thing I did was email her, and I hope I made her day. She did reply, thanking me, but really I should be the one thanking her. Helping her, even with just a single email, knowing I may have made her feel good for a while, has made me feel better about myself than I've felt in a long time.

So I'll leave you all on this note: When you get the chance to help someone, take it, because that might have been/may be you. And Katie, if you ever read this, thank you.

You're all great and beautiful and just amazing.
<3Erika<3

*sigh*

I haven't written in a while for many reasons, the underlying of which is I don't want to lie. I ask myself "How can I write and tell all these people who may read this now or in the future that everything will be ok, when even I do not believe it?" To me this is lying. Right now I do not believe everything will be ok, things will happen, I will hate them, I'll get over them, they'll happen again. A stupid cycle, no? And I do not want to be a liar, to tell you all that everything is great and fine and I am a happy person, to give you the impression I run around picking daisies and preaching happiness. I want you all to know that I've cried myself to sleep. I've went to bed upset night after night. I've woken up screaming and crying from nightmares. I've locked myself in my room and thrown things. I gave up eating for 3 days before someone begged me to eat. I've contemplated giving up on life. But yet I'm here writing this. I want you all to know that these people that want to help, we understand. I refuse to sit here and preach to you about how you should eat more and not throw up, or how cutting won't help, or even how therapy is good for you. No, I'm going to tell you I understand. I understand the feeling of being hopeless, of feeling like you have nothing and no one to live for. And I will never tell you I'm a better or stronger person because I can slowly overcome it, because YOU are the stronger person for putting up with it. But alas, how can I leave such a depressing post like this, but oh no, I shan't. (Yay for olden English?) There is some good news amongst this. There is hope of overcoming it completely. And how, you may ask? By taking those little moments to forget. Gaze at the moon and lose yourself in thought. Remember the happy times with friends/family. Just forget, even if just for a moment, lose yourself in calmness.

At times like these, I turn to my pet cat. I know she will always be there, unlike people. After so many times of crazy crying and not having anyone pick up the phone, she was always there. And because not everyone has a pet, I want to help those like me who have no one there. Here's my personal email: rubiansavior@gmail.com I check it all the time. Here's my hotmail for IM: rubiansavior@hotmail.com I am often there. And if all else fails, try here: http://chat.mibbit.com/ At the top in the drop-down bar go to Coldfront And where it says nick, enter your name. And as for the channel, type: #starlit_night I am nearly always there, and I want to be there because I know what it's like when no one is. If I fail you and am not around, yell at me, berate me, hate me if you must, because I too know how that feels.

On an ending note, take care. If help is ever needed, I am here. Find those moments to remember the small things and to forget, it's your first step to being happy, no matter how many steps you must take.

Stay beautiful forever and always, because I think you are.
<3Erika<3

Overdue, but here nonetheless.

I think a new post is well overdue.

Ladies and gentlemen, I'd just like to say that I have been going through a really tough time, as is Erika, and that is the reason we've been so behind on our blog. I'd like to throw in there that, with going through all the hardships, I'm becoming a better person, and maturing more than I thought I could. So I want you all to think about the difficult situations you're in, and look at it as if it were rounding you out more as a person. And we're humans, nonetheless, we're going to make mistakes, it's just how we are! Humans are idiots, and we have to face that fact, but we're also extremely smart and we also have to realize THAT. So tell me, can you out-smart your idiotic being?

Seriously, I love you all, and keep being beautiful <3

--Kylie

Saving The Starving

Okie dokie, it's been awhile since there's been a post. Lots has been going on!! I recently just got back from my national forensics tournament, that lasted a week, and it was absolutely amazing, and tiring, and I've got some stories!

First story. The second day we were in Kansas City, Missouri, before the tournament actually began, our 7 students that had made it to nationals were signed up to "Save the Starving" with hundreds of other people, by making meals for Haiti. It was THE most tremendous experience in my life. (so far.) You feel fantastic just by thinking to the future of the children and men and women who will be eating the meals you've made, and surviving at least one more day after the tradgedy they'd gone through. You feel happy because you are taking the extra steps in helping many, many people. The first day, there were 425,000 meals made. That is a LOT of meals, and a lot more people who won't go hungry for one more day.

Now the second story is really personal. Before I left for Kansas City, I went through a terrible situation within my family, and I was put into the hospital for a few hours. Looking back at it, I see the situation could have been prevented if I hadn't been standing in the past (Also known as Living In The Moment) practically my entire life, and even now. (I'm trying to step out... I'm trying to let go.)I also realized how many people care about me, people that I have looked over for a long time. So what I want you to do...is think about all the people that care about you, don't think just once, if you have to, think three times. Remember them during the good, and bad, times. It might just help you hold on, just like it's been helping me. I also want you to stop living in "the moment." (I also heard a speech on this. It was absolutely amazing, as well, and it sorta clicked in my head.) By living in the moment, you're holding yourself back. No matter if the moment was bad, or good. With the good moments, you must remember them, and keep those memories for when you're feeling low, but do not, by all means, hold onto the moment for the sake of remembering how good it was, and WISHING how good it could and should be in the present. Things DO change, and THAT's what you should remember most. As for the bad moments, which are the ones I have the most trouble with, I can't tell you to forget them. Forgetting, for one, isn't always the best, and two, it's hard. I can't do it, why should I make you do it? The bad moments can be remembered as lessons, lessons that you've learned from, and proceed to learn from. And if they aren't lessons, which sometimes they aren't, like moments you had no control over, try not to think back to them, because now is waaay more important than bad memories that have scarred you and still cut you open.

I think I've pretty much forgotten everything I was going to say (stupid train-of-thought)so I'm going to leave it at this: Remember the good and bad times scarcely, because as those might be important, what's more important is now, and the people who care about you in this now.

Lots of frikkin love!
--Kylie

An idea

OK, so, you're feeling down, having one of your moments, a mental breakdown, whatever. You need to make yourself feel better, so here's an idea for you. You can do it anytime, even if you're in an optimistic mood. Actually, it's more than one idea, but they can all work. One, is to write a letter to your future partner. It's an idea I got out of the book Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul. Start with Dear Boy/Girl and just write, tell them about yourself, how much you're looking forward to finding them someday, things you want to do with them, how you feel. If you're brave enough, post it as a note on FB, or if you don't want your identity known, go ahead and email it to us, we'll post it anonymously on here as an example for you and everyone else who needs hope. Another idea is to write a note to your future self. Go to futureme.org and write yourself an email that will be sent in the future. You can set the date and everything. Maybe you want to make it a year from now, or a couple weeks, it doesn't matter. You may even give yourself inspiration. If you're having a good day, tell yourself about it, and maybe the day you receive it will be a bad day and it may cheer you up. Or if you have a bad day, write all your thoughts down and when you do get that email, maybe it will help you recognize that you need to be more positive, or maybe that you need to seek professional help. Either way, I always find the best way to express yourself is to write! Who cares if you suck at writing? Let it out and then tear up the paper, delete the paragraph, erase your words. And if you can't bear to do that, like I said before, email whatever you wrote to us, we'll do the best we can to post it on here. Because we're here for YOU. If you need advice or just want someone to talk to, email us! We'll get back to you ASAP, and if you just need some cheering up, email us and tell us that and I'll make sure you get some kind of inspirational message everyday, whether it's simply "You are beautiful" to "He doesn't deserve someone like you."

And finally, some background info, we started this whole blog when I came up with the idea of putting a slip of paper into library books before I returned them saying "You are beautiful" on one side and the link to the blog on the other. I haven't gotten any library books yet, but I'm hoping to this week. If you all want to spread the word, go ahead, start doing it too. Make it spam on facebook, myspace, and twitter. Tell all your friends to start doing it. Make your own group or club to start spreading the love and word. Actually, let's make it a contest. :) If you want to, enter it by August by sending us an email. You can enter alone or as a group. Keep careful track of how many papers you put in library books, how many sticky notes you put on mirrors in public restrooms, and how many notes you slip into lockers. And come on guys, be honest now. :) By December, whoever has the most will receive some kind of prize. Maybe an inspirational t-shirt or poster. IDK yet, give us ideas and we'll see what we can come up with.

So guys, ttyl. Spread the love and stay beautiful. :)
<3Erika<3

Dragonfly

Second post today? Yep. Why? I had another one of my revelations. (You'll hear about the first one later.) So, I'm playing third base in my softball game I had tonight. I'm crouched down, ready for whatever comes at me, when something flies over my head. I look up to see a dragonfly. Normally, people would be like, "Oh hey, a dragonfly, cool." and get on with their business. Nope, not me. I took one look at this dragonfly, and I watched it as it flew around, without a care in the world. It was flying around in a dangerous area, where it could potentially be hit with a softball and be squashed and dead, or have one of the softball players wack it with their gloves, again being squashed. But it didn't look at the situation like that. It was like it was telling everyone else, "I'm here, I'm gonna be here because I feel like it and I'm gonna be okay. Don't anybody try and stop me or get in my way." It's like the saying...it was as free as a bird. (haha, funny, because it's practically like a bird. I mean, wings + sky, right?) Anyway, so why can't we be more like a dragonfly? Feel free, BE free? Which brings me to my first revelation, which most of my friends have already heard about, but now it's time to share it with the world. I had this revelation not too long ago, outside of my therapy office. I was sitting, and I looked down to find a rollie pollie crawling along the gigantic road, a huge landscape for the poor fellow, known as a sidewalk. As I watched the rollie pollie slowly crawl on, I realized that, if someone as small as he could make it on the large ground, let alone the world, why couldn't I? Why can't you? We are clearly larger than he...and perhaps we can crawl along this life, maybe with several obsticles, just like my finger was for the rollie pollie, and be alright. We can survive, and we will. As long as no one smushes us. Aha.


Keep hanging in, be like a rollie pollie and get through all the obsticles you're put up against, and try to be free like a dragonfly as much as possible :)

-Kylie

Beeee yourself! XD

Hmm...ever been told you can't do something? Ever felt small because someone put you last on the list, or benched you during a game? Have you ever had someone else chosen over you, after thinking you were going to be that one? Or even if you didn't think so...it still hurt? The glint in your eyes disappearing all because someone was treating you like you couldn't do something. I say, don't give up. I've been there, we've all been there, and when it happens, be yourself, do what you do best, play hard in the game, and don't get mad at the people who do it to you. As long as you don't change anything you've been doing, but maybe working harder to show them you can do anything you set your mind to (try it, it works), you can't be upset. And they can look at you and think, "Wow, that person is pretty cool, huh?" And if they don't...who gives a damn? You're not here to please anyone else but yourself, treat yourself with more respect than anyone else because you deserve it. Do what you think is right, don't change yourself for anyone, because the people that you need to change for aren't worth it. And then who would you be if you did change? Not yourself, and nobody likes posers. But we also have to realize that most posers out there, are lost just as much as we are, and they're way of coping is by fitting in with the wrong people, people that aren't like them. We all fit in somewhere.
So I guess this post is just about not giving up because you can be yourself and you'll do great, perhaps the best you can and be the best!

-Kylie

A few simple words saving lives? :)

Hmm...it's 5:45 AM right now. At about 5 I got a text message that woke me up. Now, normally I would ignore those, because it's someone trying to fuck with me, but this time, it was serious. A friend, who seems to think he is worthless, and a douchebag that can't be helped, was in need of someone to talk to. Lately, he's been tearing himself up over something he had no control over, something that happened over a year ago. To me, he is one of the most amazing people I have ever known, and he has helped me realize that maybe not all of the world has gone sour. Because by the way he thinks, and by the way he feels, he is a human like any of the rest of us that still...cares. He's more beautiful than he'll ever be able to understand.
So this comes to the reason of why I'm writing this post early this morning. I feel absolutely fantastic for helping someone, no matter what time it was. I could have been at work, and I would have dropped everything I was doing, just to comfort this person, because they're just as important as anyone else, and they're in need of someone.
Anyone can save a life any day, at any time, just by a few simple words. Tell people you care. Tell friends you love them. Make sure they know how important they are to you, and how important they are to the world--because we're all making a difference. Tell them they're beautiful, because no one in this semi-ugly world, who has a beating heart, or a mind filled with thoughts, is ugly.

-Kylie

"Be The Change You Wish To See In The World"

Yes, that is a quote from Ghandi. I woke up just a little while ago, and started thinking some more about this whole awareness thing, and I realized that I'm making a difference. But so are you. If you're reading this, just knowning and feeling a certain way about any of the stuff posted here makes a difference. And that's enough! Though, there is more you can do.
I'm sure you noticed that last night's post was actually really early this moning around 4 AM, and that was me making a difference at odd hours, only because that's what I wanted to do. I want to help. I want to be there for all the people around the world that are hurting.
So here is what this post is about:
You're making a difference every day just by the way you feel, give yourself a little credit. But there is a way for you to do more if that's what you will. Like Ghandi said, "Be the change you with to see in the world" and if that means doing more than just being here, and having your own feelings and beliefs, go ahead and do what you think needs to be done! Write 100 notes that read "You are beautiful" and stuff them in random lockers at your school, or set them on desks at your work, leave them set on tables in restaurants, or in public restrooms. More importantly, tell YOURSELF how beautiful you are, because it's only true.

And I'm out for now.

Lots of love!
-Kylie

First Post!

Alright, so here it is. The beginning to a blog that we hope will help in many ways. I guess we should start off by telling you how we came up with the idea. First, my name is Kylie, and this blog is run by two people, Erika and I, for you all to know how beautiful you really are. We know that each of us have our insecurities, but underneathe all of them, we're beautiful beings. This idea didn't exactly first arise when I had a mental break down about how I thought I was ugly, and no one loved me, but the day after, when Erika and I began to notice more and more how other people felt. See, when I went through my mental break down, it was as if nothing could bring me out of it; there was no one out there that could then tell me I was beautiful and have me believe it. Even as Erika sat there and told me, "Everyone is beautiful, Kylie, there is no one out there that isn't," I still felt she was wrong. But after it was all over, everything she'd said, was completely true and made total sense. I'd thought about it before, but then, right in that moment, it was more important than it ever would be. Erika and I are here to make a diffence. Because we know that life can be harsh...and love can be tough, but when the day is over, we're all still beautiful because we've made it this far, and we weren't created for nothing.

And there it is, the first post to the beginning of a continuous life saving blog.

Keep being beautiful!
-Kylie