Today is National Suicide Awareness Day.
All who know me, or have read this site before, know that I am a huge advocate against Suicide and I try to help those around me that are dealing with hardships, depression and any thoughts of suicide. It is such a serious issue, and my heart goes out to all of those who have lost loved ones to the horrible disease.
I have lost a family member to suicide, and I've been through enough to know the ropes of depression and its effects. It is not always a selfish act, so do not push people away who are feeling this low, you should be there for those people! Sometimes people aren't told enough, or shown enough, how much they are loved. So, remember to tell someone you love today that they are well appreciated, and remember that each and every one of you are loved.
Remain beautiful
Remember love in the lowest of all times
-Kylie
Monday, September 10, 2012
Saturday, September 8, 2012
Change
I opened a fortune cookie today and probably received one of the largest truths in a while. Not only that, but it was a beautiful hint of advice that I am faithfully applying to my life recently.
The fortune cookie read, "Idleness is the holiday of fools."
Does anyone understand what that means? Well, I'll tell you what it means to me.
For the longest time I have sat and just allowed everything to happen around me, because I have felt helpless. I have felt like there is not much for me to do.
However, the truth is that by sitting idle, you are allowing even the negative events to occur, you are sitting and watching bad things happen to you and to those around you.
How is this fair? How is this right? How is this anything but foolish?
Well, I'll tell you what, I didn't have an incredible saying to go along with it at first, but for the past month I have felt that sitting and doing nothing is not for me anymore.
I am so tired of letting people control my life. I am so tired of letting people walk all over me, tired of letting bad things happen when I DO have a say, I DO have an obligation to stop what is not right.
So, I've begun to stand up for myself. I am telling people "no."
I am fighting for what I believe is in the best interest for myself, and I do not need any goddamn help from anyone else, because what has that help given me in the past? Almost nothing but more pain.
It is time that my independent status actually shown through, and I do not care that by law I still have four months to wait until I am of legal age to decide where I am living, to have my own bank account without a cosigner, and to decide against any other idiotic obstacles that there are standing in my way.
If what I'm being told will hinder me in ANY form or way, hinder ANY aspect of my life, then I am not going through with it and I am doing what I need to do to be in the best shape for this very important year in my life.
I believe it is time for adults to be adults, and that requires growing up, taking responsibilities, making those responsibilities priority and being an overall good person.
I will not give respect to my elders that have NO respect for those below them, NO respect for those above them, and absolutely NO respect for themselves. These are vital to caring for other people. And one must learn this before any duties can be taken into responsibility.
Respect is so important.
And honesty is right along those lines.
Here begins the start of a revolution in my world, because I am not backing down; I am going to do EVERYTHING in my power that I know is right.
And it is my advice to the world that you keep your head up and you do what is right for yourself, too. Because you come FIRST.
Keep in mind that you must be appropriate and not get into any trouble, because trouble does not help you in the least bit, but do what is necessary. Become who you are against those who are pushing you down and folding you in so that you cannot flourish.
I tell you to flourish, anyway.
Always remain beautiful.
Love and be loved.
Respect is key.
--Kylie
The fortune cookie read, "Idleness is the holiday of fools."
Does anyone understand what that means? Well, I'll tell you what it means to me.
For the longest time I have sat and just allowed everything to happen around me, because I have felt helpless. I have felt like there is not much for me to do.
However, the truth is that by sitting idle, you are allowing even the negative events to occur, you are sitting and watching bad things happen to you and to those around you.
How is this fair? How is this right? How is this anything but foolish?
Well, I'll tell you what, I didn't have an incredible saying to go along with it at first, but for the past month I have felt that sitting and doing nothing is not for me anymore.
I am so tired of letting people control my life. I am so tired of letting people walk all over me, tired of letting bad things happen when I DO have a say, I DO have an obligation to stop what is not right.
So, I've begun to stand up for myself. I am telling people "no."
I am fighting for what I believe is in the best interest for myself, and I do not need any goddamn help from anyone else, because what has that help given me in the past? Almost nothing but more pain.
It is time that my independent status actually shown through, and I do not care that by law I still have four months to wait until I am of legal age to decide where I am living, to have my own bank account without a cosigner, and to decide against any other idiotic obstacles that there are standing in my way.
If what I'm being told will hinder me in ANY form or way, hinder ANY aspect of my life, then I am not going through with it and I am doing what I need to do to be in the best shape for this very important year in my life.
I believe it is time for adults to be adults, and that requires growing up, taking responsibilities, making those responsibilities priority and being an overall good person.
I will not give respect to my elders that have NO respect for those below them, NO respect for those above them, and absolutely NO respect for themselves. These are vital to caring for other people. And one must learn this before any duties can be taken into responsibility.
Respect is so important.
And honesty is right along those lines.
Here begins the start of a revolution in my world, because I am not backing down; I am going to do EVERYTHING in my power that I know is right.
And it is my advice to the world that you keep your head up and you do what is right for yourself, too. Because you come FIRST.
Keep in mind that you must be appropriate and not get into any trouble, because trouble does not help you in the least bit, but do what is necessary. Become who you are against those who are pushing you down and folding you in so that you cannot flourish.
I tell you to flourish, anyway.
Always remain beautiful.
Love and be loved.
Respect is key.
--Kylie
Monday, May 14, 2012
Living with optimism: screwing the bastards who want to eat you for breakfast
Screw those people who tell you that you aren't capable.
Screw every single person that has ever told you no, ever called you something awful, ever insulted a talent you've felt passionately about.
Screw people who insult you in general, because you should believe what you truly believe about yourself and not what they're trying to make you believe.
Do you know how many times I've listened to people call me stupid, a failure, a bitch, a liar, a fake, someone who will "never make it in life," someone who is a follower?
Do you know how many times I've fallen for the same, boring lies?
I know I'm not any of those. Yet, when my mother would tell me those things, I would hate myself with so much anger and rage and depression that it would eat away at my self preservation and I would end up vulnerable to every single horrible thing that could ever be said or done to me, and I would lose all self-esteem in the process.
Sometimes, most often times, I believed I deserved those hurtful words.
But let me tell you, you can rise above every last one of those letters that makes up the screwed up language that is of hate. You can rise against the forces that want to hold you back.
And who really cares why they do those things to you?
You know why you shouldn't care?
Because fuck that.
It is so damn IMPORTANT to know that you can do ANYTHING if you have enough willpower to do so. (Speaking in terms of actual abilities, you cannot fly without any equipment, please do not go jump off of a building thinking you can. Let's be literal here).
You know what I have accomplished, despite the environment I have been submersed in my entire life?
I have accomplished the success of overcoming.
I have accomplished love, and refused to hate (though I have found I think I'm incapable of such a strong emotion towards other humans), and I regret nothing.
I have accomplished fulfilling my dreams, if not just starting out by creating them and hopefully continuing to progress.
I have accomplished living life the way a person should through difficult times.
And you know what that means?
You. Can. Too.
I just want to fucking SCREAM.
Scream and shout and tell you that you CAN. You can do what you WANT. Live in the boundary lines of right and stray far from the wrong side and you can accomplish so much, the very much you have planned throughout your childhood.
Because I know each and every one of you has a dream, a mapped out plan for life, that sweet, perfect life you've always wanted.
Nothing will ever always be given to you but you can earn a lot of it.
So, work for it.
And screw those assholes who are telling you no.
And you know what else?
For those of you who have sour attitudes and want to use the excuse that you have a horrible life,
stoppit.
You people make me sick because I KNOW you can do better, I KNOW you can be polite and nice and not awful and rude all of the time, because I do it. I've met other people who do it.
Take what has happened to you and turn it into something GOOD, turn it into life lessons that not many people can learn on their own, turn it into standards that you can set for yourself so you can never be like those people who bring others down, and come out knowing that you are a better person because of what has happened to you.
Stop ruining what you have left for yourself by making others feel awful, too.
If you want any chance at happiness, grasp it with WELCOMING arms and don't shove it back because you're afraid.
Go ahead and let people get close to you, I promise, it is SO much better to have loved and let go/lost rather than to have not loved at all.
It's apart of life.
Live it. Love it.
Stay beautiful.
-Kylie
Screw every single person that has ever told you no, ever called you something awful, ever insulted a talent you've felt passionately about.
Screw people who insult you in general, because you should believe what you truly believe about yourself and not what they're trying to make you believe.
Do you know how many times I've listened to people call me stupid, a failure, a bitch, a liar, a fake, someone who will "never make it in life," someone who is a follower?
Do you know how many times I've fallen for the same, boring lies?
I know I'm not any of those. Yet, when my mother would tell me those things, I would hate myself with so much anger and rage and depression that it would eat away at my self preservation and I would end up vulnerable to every single horrible thing that could ever be said or done to me, and I would lose all self-esteem in the process.
Sometimes, most often times, I believed I deserved those hurtful words.
But let me tell you, you can rise above every last one of those letters that makes up the screwed up language that is of hate. You can rise against the forces that want to hold you back.
And who really cares why they do those things to you?
You know why you shouldn't care?
Because fuck that.
It is so damn IMPORTANT to know that you can do ANYTHING if you have enough willpower to do so. (Speaking in terms of actual abilities, you cannot fly without any equipment, please do not go jump off of a building thinking you can. Let's be literal here).
You know what I have accomplished, despite the environment I have been submersed in my entire life?
I have accomplished the success of overcoming.
I have accomplished love, and refused to hate (though I have found I think I'm incapable of such a strong emotion towards other humans), and I regret nothing.
I have accomplished fulfilling my dreams, if not just starting out by creating them and hopefully continuing to progress.
I have accomplished living life the way a person should through difficult times.
And you know what that means?
You. Can. Too.
I just want to fucking SCREAM.
Scream and shout and tell you that you CAN. You can do what you WANT. Live in the boundary lines of right and stray far from the wrong side and you can accomplish so much, the very much you have planned throughout your childhood.
Because I know each and every one of you has a dream, a mapped out plan for life, that sweet, perfect life you've always wanted.
Nothing will ever always be given to you but you can earn a lot of it.
So, work for it.
And screw those assholes who are telling you no.
And you know what else?
For those of you who have sour attitudes and want to use the excuse that you have a horrible life,
stoppit.
You people make me sick because I KNOW you can do better, I KNOW you can be polite and nice and not awful and rude all of the time, because I do it. I've met other people who do it.
Take what has happened to you and turn it into something GOOD, turn it into life lessons that not many people can learn on their own, turn it into standards that you can set for yourself so you can never be like those people who bring others down, and come out knowing that you are a better person because of what has happened to you.
Stop ruining what you have left for yourself by making others feel awful, too.
If you want any chance at happiness, grasp it with WELCOMING arms and don't shove it back because you're afraid.
Go ahead and let people get close to you, I promise, it is SO much better to have loved and let go/lost rather than to have not loved at all.
It's apart of life.
Live it. Love it.
Stay beautiful.
-Kylie
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